'I get knocked down...

But I get up, you aint never goana keep me down'.

Oh, Tubthumping... How well you fit my life right now.

Regarding my previous post a few days ago... I really don't know still... It has set in, but to what extent, I have no idea. I fucked up, enough to lose it all. Just as I would never wish death on anyone, I would never wish someone to feel "true heartbreak". Worst feeling in the world, especially when it's your fault in the end.

I'm planning on studying abroad in Spain next semester, and completed my online application for the program last week... I needed to get a credit transfer form signed by the International Studies office on campus, and in typical William Paterson fashion, I had to set up a MEETING to get it done.. ONE FORM, ONE SIGNATURE.... Wait a week, for a 2 minute meeting. Awesome.

So I arrive today at 1pm in the lady's office. Five, Ten, Fifteen, Thirty minutes pass, and the lady is still not in her office... Turns out, she was still on LUNCH. FUCKING LUNCH WHEN I SET UP MY MEETING WITH YOU A WEEK AGO. If it's not obvious yet, I wasn't too pleased when she finally showed up and beckoned me into her office, without an apology. At all. Not once. Fantastic.

I explain my situation, i've applied already etc... just need this filled out yadda yadda yadda. She turns to me and flat out says "No, you've done it all wrong." I honestly had my jaw open in disbelief the entire time she explained to me that apparently, theres ANOTHER step BEFORE you apply through the program that I was never told about... You need to FIRST apply through the fucking state of New Jersey to study abroad. Ok... doesn't seem so hard. But then, she laid upon me, the great part of today's conversation.

The application fee...to the state... to go somewhere else... outside of the USA...Having nothing to do with the state basically.. IS FOUR HUNDRED FUCKING DOLLARS.
*Instert " BEND ME OVER AGAIN New Jersey. JEESUS H F'ING CHRIST"*

BUT WAIT.... Theres MORE! 3 references, a health exam, etc...

Fan-fucking-tastic.

Oh, the best part. Everything is due Oct 1. Now, if i had been told about this first step last year when I was in her office, it'd be ok with it, etc. But nope... lets frantically rush to get everything done that usually takes a month to do... in a week and a half essentially.

AWESOME.

Besides that, life is life. School is here, i'm working 20 hours a week, being an RA never changes.. etc.

How's everyone else doing?