Update..

Wooooooooooo.
It's been a while since i've last posted anything here at, "Blog Title Goes Here..." .
Well, wait a few more hours. I leave the country in 8 days, so expect something to go here over the next 24-48 hours...

Is anything better...?

Then Dave Matthews Band?

Walk into a shitty situation/mood after class, and a simple click onto DMB has me smiling and singing back into what should be a great mood for this weekend and the rest of next week in its entirety.

Oh,
Made a trip to Borders yesterday to grab a few new reading materials to keep me occupied at work. Picked up Gus Hansen's book of his 2007 Aussie Millions win, A book about a stock market whiz kid's life (poor to rich etc.) entitled 'The Wolf of Wall Street', and a third book about a rags to riches story in Vegas ( see a trend here?) about 2 ".com" millionaires that sell their business and end up buying The Golden Nugget casino in Vegas. It's in the car at the moment, and the name of the third book is slipping my mind, but it's a fantastic read, only a hundred pages in. Ill be sure to edit/repost later tomorrow when I have it back in my room.

And so...

The months turn into weeks...the weeks into days.. the days into hours.. All for what?

My 21st Birthday.

As I sit here, at 2:32AM, listening to Pandora.Com's DMB station and currently in one 10+1 MTT on FTP, I can only think of a few things.

1) I turn 21 in less than a week now.. and i can't wait. Besides the obvious ability to drink in public, I will be legal to RENT A CAR! Oh, and that thing called Poker...ya, I can actually play in a casino now! *Shameless plug - Reminder : AC trip for my bday, Nov 7-10th. Will be down there all weekend. *

2) I recently took part in my Major Program's huge event of the semester, the Sales Challenge. Composed of 3 events (Mock Role Play, Mock Interview, and 2-minute speed sell), companies from all over the tri-state area and as far as Boston, MA, pay WPU to come "scout" out sales majors/minors for possible internships/jobs as we grow older and move onto the professional world.
Simply put, this event routinely jump-starts Sales Major's careers, both current undergrads and soon-to-be graduates. I, luckily, was able to get in touch with a few companies after my events, all of which were interested in speaking about a summer internship for next year...
I couldn't be more excited. Two of the companies are stationed in the city, and one all over NJ (Enterprise). I really hope one of the three works out, as it would aid me greatly in getting my foot through the door in a profession I would love to be a part of once I graduate.

3) I don't know what the third one is... possibly my life in general.. If my life were to be compared to some sort of image, spanning over the last year or so, It'd most likely look like the Stock Market graphs of October... up, then down, then up, then down... some days, it looks amazing out through my eyes. Others, a bit gloomy and gray. But to a certain extent, I think you can attribute both good and bad days to growing up.
I'm learning, and have learned, a great deal about myself over the past year, and more importantly, since I've gotten to college. I've grown into a young man that believes in himself finally... I always had the cockiness, but as of late, have turned it into confidence. I've learned that people's opinions of you mean absolutely nothing, unless you allow them to. You define who you are, not a rumor nor a stereotype.
I'd be lieing if I said I cannot wait to leave on January 7th. There are people I will miss beyond any sort of able recognition, and you know who you are. Then there are those, who I sort of wish will be out of my life when I return. Maybe i'm being a bit harsh, but who knows. Only time will tell.

Goodnight.

It's official...

I'M GOING TO SPAIN MUTHA FUCKAS!

Ha. Now that we have that out of the way, I received my acceptance email from ISA yesterday morning... What a great thing to wake up to, after a month and a halfs worth of work etc. Now, I get to fight the Spanish Consulate in NYC for my student visa earlier than "expected" delivery so I can still be eligible for my selected program. Sigh.

Also, time to find a cheap flight, and get my course assignments done so I can fight my academic chair person for credits. Weeeeeeeeee.

In other news... there is none. I'm working a ton still trying to pay my bills and build a roll for AC which is in three weeks. The countdown to my birthday (21 baby) is now at 19 days.. or 18 if you don't count the actual day? Idk how that works.

Holla atcha boy

I had one of the best, most intelligent, well thought out talks in my life tonight. It was simply surreal to be able to sit down with someone, and talk about everything, without the before-thought that it may sound mean, or harsh, or fake, etc. Just true feelings and emotions and honesty. And it made me realize, there's more to my life than what I sometimes perceive to be. I feel as though lately, my life is a huge blur... but not in the "everything is moving too fast" sort of way.

My life is confusing, to say the least. Like i've written before, school/work/spain/poker.. it's confusing. And tonight really set a few things "right"... and if you are reading this, thank you...

Was going to write out a good entry...

But all of a sudden, I lost the motivation to bitch and complain for the night... sigh. Let's go Rangers.

Frustration... Anxiety...Excitement...

Sounds intriguing, right?

Let's go down the list.

Frustration :
William Paterson's International Studies office, sucks. Secondly, New Jersey's "way" of handling applications, sucks. Put 2 and 2 together, and I'm frustrated as hell at the fact that I have to wait an extra 3 weeks to find out if I'm accepted into my program of choice of Barcelona b/c it's an ass-backwards process. Fan. Fucking. Tastic.

Anxiety :
This semester will either prove to myself, that I can handle a large workload along with a large chunk of my time spent working (making $), AND extra-curricular actives ; or I'll fall flat on my face as I hopefully board a plane to Spain. Either way, I'm nervous/anxious as hell about what I'm taking on this October and November.

I'm scared I will fail terribly in my sales classes, even though this semester's schedule has made me happier than ever with what I've chosen to do regarding my choice of major and my future post-college. The sales challenge is something I KNOW i can do well at, it's just executing that has me queezy at times.

Due to my AC trip ( which will be explained in greater detail at the end of this post..), I'm working close to 25-30 hours a week to try to make a nice G for Cards... This may seem nothing compared to what other students do, but for myself, working 30 hours a week, plus Sigma Pi, plus RA'ing etc... I'm impressed with the workload i've accumulated, but at the same time, know it's a daunting task and one which will help define my character/work-ethic if I follow through with everything.

Excitement :
It's finally official. I , along with Rob and Joe, and whoever else decides to trek down to AC for my bday, are going to be there from Nov 7 (friday) - Nov 10th (monday). Yes, Friday-Monday. What's that mean? I'm paying a lot for my hotel for that weekend, yes. But more importantly, there are AT LEAST 2 nights where people can come down and celebrate the fact I'm legal. Also, the oppurtunity to be able to say "I saw / knew Greg De Jesus when he wasn't a degenerate gambler" is very possible.

Anyway, We'll be down there from friday morning till mon morning. We are staying at the Showboat the entire time. The only minor snag up, is the fact I'm so broke, I can only afford a room for myself /w Rob/Joe. This means, if you decide to come down, unfortunately plan on finding a place to crash that most likely, isn't my room's floor. I'm not 100% on Rob/Joe's feelings, so I'll have to pass it by them if we're going to have any "crash" space. Regardless though, I HIGHLY suggest that if you are coming, find someone else (or 3 or 4 people) to split a room wtih.. It IS Atlantic City on a weekend, so any boardwalk casino/hotel's will atleast be 200 a night.. there are always the Motels/Hotels off the strip that can be had for around 100 a night, so do some research if your coming down. Again, i'm sorry I'm not baller enough to host people, but I hope it doesn't deter anyone from coming to celebrate and have a fcuking awesome time down there with me.

Also, the general plan seems to be, to do one Birthday Dinner down there either Fri or Sat. night. If you're interested or definitely planning on coming down, please drop me a line with which day your coming down and I can get a general idea of what day is best to make a reservation somewhere on the Strip. Most likely afterthe dinner, hit up Casbah or one of the clubs down there to get in my required night of fist pumping per NJ rules.

Hm... what else...

Oh... Mary, aka best friend from Vernon, requested to be in this blog. I'VE GOT FANS! Haha. I feel for the young lady though.. she's an employee @ Weis's in Kutztown, and it's fucking idiot central. Poor sap.

Hit me up with questions/ideas etc for AC...

DeadCellKid - AIM
gregdejesus@yahoo.com - Email

It's been a while...

And not much has changed..

I know I "owe" a post on my teacher's quote,but tonight's not the night for it. Deal.

I'm sitting in my building's office on duty, and all i can think about is the amount of work I have for financial accounting tonight, that I obviously don't want to do. At all. Period.

Rush week is this week, and I'm missing every fucking event due to staff commitments or work. FML. It looks like we'll have a decent sized class for a fall pledge class, but we'll see Thursday night.

My application for studying abroad goes in Friday, and I couldn't be happier to have it all done finally. Fuck the NJCIS or w/e it's called, they added more stress to my life than i could imagine being given in a damn day. Congratulations.

OH!
My 21st Birthday Celebration.
It's going down Nov 7-10th, either that friday to sunday, or saturday to monday. We are going to Atlantic City for the weekend to gamble/drink/party etc. All are welcome to join me and my brothers/friends/family etc... I will be posting the casino we're staying at and the dates etc. when they are finally booked. The general plan seems to be - Go down early fri or sat, gamble all day, then a nice dinner that night and then to a club. The next day or two will consist of me losing my bankroll or building a gigantic one. Who knows!

Let me know if you have any questions etc.

An interesting quote from my professor...

Leads me to post it now, and write up a blog most likely tomorrow about it..

"In life, you can be one of three things... Positive, Negative, or Neutral... pick one, as long as it's not neutral... Have some passion, be it positive or negative, just don't fall into the neutral."

I'll explain more later.. Now though, is time for my chapter's "Pie a Pi" fundraiser.

'I get knocked down...

But I get up, you aint never goana keep me down'.

Oh, Tubthumping... How well you fit my life right now.

Regarding my previous post a few days ago... I really don't know still... It has set in, but to what extent, I have no idea. I fucked up, enough to lose it all. Just as I would never wish death on anyone, I would never wish someone to feel "true heartbreak". Worst feeling in the world, especially when it's your fault in the end.

I'm planning on studying abroad in Spain next semester, and completed my online application for the program last week... I needed to get a credit transfer form signed by the International Studies office on campus, and in typical William Paterson fashion, I had to set up a MEETING to get it done.. ONE FORM, ONE SIGNATURE.... Wait a week, for a 2 minute meeting. Awesome.

So I arrive today at 1pm in the lady's office. Five, Ten, Fifteen, Thirty minutes pass, and the lady is still not in her office... Turns out, she was still on LUNCH. FUCKING LUNCH WHEN I SET UP MY MEETING WITH YOU A WEEK AGO. If it's not obvious yet, I wasn't too pleased when she finally showed up and beckoned me into her office, without an apology. At all. Not once. Fantastic.

I explain my situation, i've applied already etc... just need this filled out yadda yadda yadda. She turns to me and flat out says "No, you've done it all wrong." I honestly had my jaw open in disbelief the entire time she explained to me that apparently, theres ANOTHER step BEFORE you apply through the program that I was never told about... You need to FIRST apply through the fucking state of New Jersey to study abroad. Ok... doesn't seem so hard. But then, she laid upon me, the great part of today's conversation.

The application fee...to the state... to go somewhere else... outside of the USA...Having nothing to do with the state basically.. IS FOUR HUNDRED FUCKING DOLLARS.
*Instert " BEND ME OVER AGAIN New Jersey. JEESUS H F'ING CHRIST"*

BUT WAIT.... Theres MORE! 3 references, a health exam, etc...

Fan-fucking-tastic.

Oh, the best part. Everything is due Oct 1. Now, if i had been told about this first step last year when I was in her office, it'd be ok with it, etc. But nope... lets frantically rush to get everything done that usually takes a month to do... in a week and a half essentially.

AWESOME.

Besides that, life is life. School is here, i'm working 20 hours a week, being an RA never changes.. etc.

How's everyone else doing?

It's gone...

...and for the first time in my life, I've lost it all.

Hindsight is 20/20, but I wish I could change the past.

2-day hell is finally over..

And by 2 day hell, I mean check-in for residents. The longest two days of the year basically, where the we (the RA's), work 8am-7pm each day checking in residents. We ALSO get the luxury of dealing with irate parents, students with IQ's the same as a damn rock, and are fed boxed lunches etc.

So ya, 2-day hell is pretty fitting.

We're all done, which is nice to know/hear after your 20th hour.

Now, tomorrow brings a whole new list of shit to get done... Need to run and find the accounting and/or law offices to get squeezed into a class since apparently, I only registered for 12 credits, not 15 like I thought, last May. Then running around campus trying to find brothers and get us on schedule. Then trying to find hours for work. Exciting, exhilarating, enticing? Naw, enticing doesn't seem to fit. But i digress...

The semester is finally here... the students/brothers/staff are back in full force and it's a nice and a comfort at times, to hear and see so many people in one place.

Until next time..

It seems like..

This past week has gone by at a snail's pace... damn.

Training ends tomorrow, and depending on my decision whether to be a RA next fall, this may be my last training, and my last semester as a RA. It's only my second year, but after last year's experiences, I feel as though it's my fifth or sixth. And to be blunt, training has dragged on. I don't regret being a "Trainer" for the returning and new RA's, as it's been a great experience and excellent practice for presenting in front of a large group of people. But the sessions run into another as the week goes on, and it's tough to really have that enthusiasm as the week progresses. Regardless, it's bittersweet this could be my last semester as an RA.

College football starts tonight, and I'm very curious to see how the top 10 shapes up once week 4 or 5 finish. The general consensus seems to be Georgia, USC, & Ohio State at the top of the BCS polls... should be very interesting, and a ton of fun to follow/watch.

My Mets took back first place, and now the drive to the post season really begins. With Maine on the DL, I'm assuming they will call up Jon Niese to pitch, which should be a quick glimpse into the Mets future, as Niese has been labeled the next "home grown pitcher" in their system.

My prediction? Mets win the East, but not by more than 2-3 games. I do believe that the 1-2-3 of Santana/Perez/Pelfrey can really carry them into the playoffs and then some.

Lastly, NY Rangers Hockey starts soon, and i cannot freaking wait. I plan on going to a few games this year, and being 21 at the Garden is like a dream come true.

Lost.... pt.2

The earlier post was about someone and myself... obviously.
They may read this, they may not. Regardless, I've got to get a lot out there to someone, or in this case, something.... Enjoy.

So It's been almost four months since I've really felt like we were "ok". We were great leading up to your graduation... I came to see you in the city, and after that, It all came tumbling down. I don't know how, or why, or what... Basically, I'm still lost, four months later. We talked on and off from that point... we even had a few talks about what had happened... we said we'd work on it.. we'd try to make it work... and unfortunately, thus far, It hasn't.

I sit here, and wonder, what happened? We seemed so .. good? It was a feeling for you, that I've never felt before in my life... and I still feel the same, albeit combined with a lost feeling now.

I'm lost in all of this and cannot for the life of me, find my way out. We can't even seem to find the time right now, to get together and talk face to face... I can only imagine it'd be so much easier to say what we both need to get out in person, rather than abrupt, untimely, and seemingly unproductive text messages.

I don't know why I've sat here, for four months, and just waited.. I've never done it before...ever. I've pretty much asked myself the same question, every day, these past months... "Why?" There's never been that guarantee that it'll fix itself... or that we'd get that chance to fix it. You've never asked me to wait... let's get that out there.. It's always been my choice. I don't regret a single day, to be completely honest. I've asked myself why I don't regret it, and I think I've finally come up with an "ok" answer, at least for myself.

I believe in us. I believe that You and I, are meant for more than this. Over the past two years that I've known you, we've become closer than I ever could have imagined, and obviously at the same time, have become farther apart, than I could have ever imagined, or wanted for that matter. I also believe, that we've helped each other grow as adults, beyond anything we could have thought would come about from us being friends, and then some.

Thats the start of it... I can't lie, this felt good.. to get it out there.. I know people, who don't know me, or do know me, be it well or not, can/will read this. So be it. This is my life as it is. Welcome to it.

Lost...

When you think that you've got life, or love life to be more exact, figured out... it's only a new door to a new hallway in a building your not familiar with. More to come later, if I ever do figure this out...

Where to start...?

I've always been a huge fan of blogging, so I figured for the next few days,weeks,months (We'll see how I like this), I'll try it out. Should be interesting, to say the least.

Where to start... ?

I guess a quick BIO wouldn't hurt...
4th year of school at William Paterson University, Sales Major.
Brother of Sigma Pi Fraternity, International. Theta Tau Chapter.
Resident Assistant for WPU.
20 years old, soon to be 21 (11/3)...
Sports Lover... more importantly Die Hard Mets/NYRangers/Packers fan...
Recreational Poker player, but I have begun to see a nice profit over the past year and have taken the game much more seriously since.

That about sums it up for basics... Anyway..

School starts in about a week, but I've been on campus since the 17th for RA Training... it's that time of year again, and although I can't say training has been terrible, it is the same basic policies etc.., and it can be monotonous at times. I cannot wait till school starts though; seeing brothers who I havn't seen in a few months, friends I haven't seen, and finally getting back into that school grind again will be a nice change of pace from the summer...

I worked for PSEG this summer, as I had 2 summers ago (broke my leg last summer to a alcohol-induced jump off of a roof at a Sigma Pi Cinco De Mayo extravaganza at Kutztown University...) and I can honestly say, I do not miss waking up at 6 am every day, nor working my 40+ Hr weeks in summer heat. Hence, bring on that school grind.

I don't know what else to write. I'll leave my first blog post ever at that.

Adios